Am I Broken

I feel flustered. I have moments of insight and then I get frightened. Or tired. Am I failing? Am I failing? Should I just stand still or keep going?

Trying to find ways to cope with all of this has been painstakingly grueling. I feel like my solution can never start until I just do (blank)….

What is it? What am I chasing? Where am I going? Why am I running? What am I becoming?

What am I afraid of? Is it love? Is it commitment? Am I just ruined? Why can’t I fix this?

I’m so disconnected, I don’t want to feel. Why can’t I feel? How do I heal? Am I broken?